I will say that Tuesday was a challenge to my inner strength as a person and I was able to come through that still proud of my behavior and attitude. That makes the day successful. I did not give in to despair or sadness or negativity though I had my moments. Wednesday turned out to be fairly positive with the kids, my parents, and I hiking at "our" park...just taking time to be together and talk and relax. Our lives have become so busy that we welcome any opportunity to take a time out and just be....Wednesday was that for us.
The worst part has definitely been the anticipation of that day. Social events have been especially hard lately because I overhear talks about husbands or family life that I miss. The hockey rink, too...for some reason it has been more difficult to be there at night. It just is, though. As my son practically lives there (or would like to!), it is a place I need to find peace with...hard to do when you can't stop looking at the very place he died.
The good news is that we made it. We are still thriving and finding joy in our everyday lives. The kids are doing great in school and in their activities. My life is in a good place, loaded with friends and family that I can never show my appreciation for enough. We are blessed.